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It’s not very often that I write poetry anymore …

Perhaps it’s the lack of inspiration …

Or, it just might be that I don’t have the ‘gift’ anymore …

But, I’d like to think those things we’re ‘good at’, we never lose …

It’s not like God gives it to you, and then takes it away …

I think it’s always there … even in dry spells … even in dark days …

Here is a poem I just wrote today … God bless each of you!

Jumping into a sea of confidence…
That is what I seek…
Flying above the vast clouds that fill a beautiful blue sky…
That is what I ask for…
Climbing atop a mountainous terrain…
That is my greatest fear…
Wishing on a star …
That is what gives me hope …
Understanding humanity …
My greatest uncertainty …
Seeking You …
My only comfort …

Leave Out All the Rest

Understanding life’s uncertainties isn’t something I pretend to do …

I guess as I’ve lived my life, understanding that I don’t know all the answers, makes life more spontaneous perhaps … I don’t know … it just seems to me, if you knew all the answers, then life just might be a little dull …

I’ve lived and learned about how people can let you down, yet in the midst of that, forgiveness is on the other end of that disappointment …

Not because I want to forgive so much, but because God interjects my thoughts and helps me realize the power of forgiveness … after all, I’ve done a few stupid things in my day, and in those moments of realization of those not so good choices, I’ve learned the power of mercy and grace …

So how would it look if in the uncertainties and disappointments of life, I choose to hold a grudge; to NOT forgive?

It’s one of those qualms that I’ll never understand … how we can just forgive and forget … yet, there is reassurance in knowing that God can be what we cannot be, and in those moments, we can certainly leave out all the rest …

Is it 'People Pleasing'?

Ok, so there is this thing about me that I hate…I take things so personal sometimes. I take things to heart, so much that it hurts my insides…do you know what I’m talking about???

…anyway, the thing about that is, I hate that I feel like that. It’s like I have no control over how people respond to me, or treat me, so most of the time, I take their frustrations or confusion, and point the blame at myself because I don’t want them to be upset…

…I don’t want them to feel pain, sorrow or uncertainty, so it’s like this innate thing inside me that says, ‘feel it for them’.

Now I don’t know if you would consider that a ‘People Pleaser’, which can be such a harsh label that people throw around, but I do wish to work on this attribute that I so wish I did NOT have…

People…beautiful, yet so amazingly uncertain…